Attitude Problems and a Walk

You can only imagine how short of time it takes to ruin a day untill you've actually lived it. In about half a second, our plans to hang out today were cancelled. Today we had a half-day. It was nice, except for 12th period. I was actualy excited that McLean wasn't here assuming it would be a free period. Long behold, we have a shitload of work and homework to dooo!! Bleh I got the classwork done (surprising considering my rate of speed) but I still had to. Bring a text book home. After school, he and I left the hs headed for Wendys. It was a half day and I usually have 4th period lunch. Man, was I starving! I was so excited to finally have a day where he and I could hang out. I wouldn't be much time together because he still had to go home and care for Jona, but it was still something. Jacob. Brought his guitar today and we also had to bring instruments home. I feel bad every time he has to carry both, but if your gonna bring something I guess it"s obvious that your going to hav e extra luggage later.
So were walking down Liberty St. and we're talking about our day. Making a few jokes here and there and I've got this smile on my face. I'm excited , y'know? Then, if I'm correct, at the corner of Liberty St. And Jefferson St., I told him that I don't know if I have a ride home because my brother has school. In my mind I thought, "Yeah I guess when we walk back to your house where I drop you off, I'll probably take the bus or something. Oh well." The response I received caught me off guard and I was confused. I was walking over a pile of snow at the corner when he stopped walking behind me. "Babe, really?" He said. I turned around, us divided by the snow, and he stood there just staring at me. "Your not getting a ride so I have to walk home with these?!" Thoughts shot across my mind. I was giving you a ride? Why is he so mad? Are we still going to hang out? God, I was really looking forward to this all week! Looks like I just ruined another day. Outside of my thoughts, actions were so delayed of reason. My felt emotions at the time can only be described as let down.. Not by him, but the day itself. Hello, my name is Stefanellie and I am uninterntionally inconsiderate. Had I known he was bringing the guitar and we'd have to practice over the weekend last night when we made the plans, maybe we wouldn't have been in that situation. It takes time for me to put two and two together in my mind and everything was just a mess. So there we were, just standing there, staring. His stare was that pissed off, I don't want to talk to you because you're so inconciderate kinda of stare. Mine was that confused, hastey kind. I didn't know how to respond or explain myself so I just stepped down to hug him goodbye. He would turn around and walk home and I would do the same. In stead, I told him that I would walk him home. I wanted to make anything out of this half-day opportunity. As we walked the other way, I then tried to explain my jumbled thoughts and attempted to convey reason. Ah, turns out I had an attitude in my voice. I've been told that so often, yet I can't seem to notice it until its pointed out. Gotta fix that. My parents hate it too. He stopped walking and turned to me and said, "Your talking as if you're the one mad. If anything, I should be the one mad!" Once again, hello, my name is Stefanellie and I tend to make others think I'm mad when I'm really not. Ah, I am a master when it comes to digging hold deeper into the ground. He said he wanted to walk home alone. And I already done my damage for today.
So I walked home. I walked the entire way home whih I haven't done in a while. I guess its nice to walk off your emotions because it kept my mind off the journey and I was home in no time. Walking down Franklin St., I had to walk over an huge snow pile at the corner. A car was at the intersection and saw me slip and almost fall over. I caught myself and my hand fell into a pile of snow. The car started beeping and I guess they were laughing. I didn't bother to turn around. All I thought was "Fuck you" I got up shook the snow off my right arm and kept walking. I guess since he had a long way home, it was fair that I should do the same right? Fairness. Photo is of the finish mask!

Changing & Lost Memory

I can't help but feel that I'm changing for the better. Its as if I'm noticing myself, from an out of body state, experiencing the comfortable social progress. The usual situation is that I worry too much and try too hard. But considering how my junior year has been so far, I am talking to people in my class much more comfortably that the usual awkward stuff. I finally feel a bit like I'm part of the junior class..

This morning we had an assembly called Project PRIDE . Inmates from NJ state prisons came to talk about how certain choices made in their lives landed them in the same tan jumpsuits. The point proven is to make the right choices like have fun but be carful. I couldn't agree more with the idea and even though I'm not a party animal or a pot head, it still applied to my life as well. after school, I couldn't hang out with him once again. I walked him home and then walked back to the high school. It was pretty freakin cold! I had my laptop and a textbook in hand so it was a bit heavy to walk with. I have walked the distances so many times just to be with him for a walk home. There hasn't really been a time where I have said no to walking. Ugh, tonight I have accidentally wiped out my entire phone memory. odueshfjsnkjsn. While we were BBMing, I admit to falling asleep. Every time I burst back awake, I immediate go to my phone to reply you awaiting BBMs. My phone is password protected and my phone did not read as the usual request for password. Instead, I was asked to "Enter "Blackberry" to continue" I followed the directions. It didn't work. Maybe I typed it wrong. I triend it a few more times and still nothing. What the hell, man?! After so many failed attempts, it automatically began completely resetting my phone as part of a security feature. I am so stressed and upset about this because I have unpublished posts on there! I had the same exact situation when I lost my iPod a few weeks ago. Losing the equipment itself wasn't a big deal, but the one source of of that I needed, my blog posts, were gone! I donn't if I'll be able to sleep nicely tonight. Photo is of my phone :(

Endure the Long Hours

Wow today has been an insanely long day! We finally have a car now. Its the same brand and model as our old one, but ours is the new 2011 style.. Its pretty cool when I think about how I was there when my parents first bought the Toyota Sienna in 2004. Here we are 6 years later, purchasing the same car and I'm here to endure the long hours of a car deal all over again! At first, I was very excited to be with my parents to get the new car. But as time went on and waiting progressed, my patience decreased and I became grouchy. When we last went to the dealer, my brother pointed out that my father is always trying to get sympathy from the employees about his accident. Pa, I'm glad you're alive and everything, but you don't need to keep doing that. Maybe not including one or two people, my father told just about each person he encountered today. Also, he was getting into another man's business, asking what he bought and how much he was getting it for. I didn't confront my father; I just walked away and tried to ignore it. We were out of there by 7PM, which was when we headed over to Willowbrook for dinner at the Cheesecake Factory. The wait was so long that my father just wanted to leave, but we checked two places before that and I just didn't want to move again. Dinner was good. I had a Cuban Sandwich and actually finished half of it! Considering the portions they serve there and how much I usually eat, this is surprising. Photo is from the dealership.

I Didn't Want Too Look At It Too Long

OH MY GOODNESS MIDTERMS ARE FINALLY OVER. Today I took my last, and final midterm for US History 2. I don't think I did as well as I expected, but I don't care. Testing is ova! We also finally had our bake sale today. For the past day or so, I have been tempted to eat one of the cupcakes because the delicious scent always seemed to linger in the kitchen. Towards the end of the day, I was just feeling miserable. I gave up half way through AP Chem when someone else needed my book. They apologized, but I brushed it off. I told them that it was okay because I wasn't paying attention anyway. For some reason, I get this feeling towards the end of 11th period now. It's a queasy feeling for the fact that I have to walk into English soon. I effed up projects and have received bad grades there and I'm reminded of it all every day. We didn't do much aside from present our projects. Some people had some neat, artistic projects. When I looked back at mine, I didn't want to look at it too long. Egh. Paper mache and a sloppy paint job looked terrible together. My attempt to try something new failed. After school, I had to take care of the bake sale. That was probably the first time I have ever done so and I'm supposedly Capt. haha. When I got home, I found my mask from last night mostly dried. I get excited every time I look at it because I have some big hopes for this! I finally cleaned the cage today. :0 Photo is of the amazing Post-It section at Staples. @___@

Mask Begun

When you wake up in the morning there isn't much to be happy about. But when your mom wakes you to tell you that school is canceled and you have a snow day, it is like music to your ears. Without a second thought, I fell right back to sleep. Later on, I woke up and had breakfast. Then, my family, minus my father, went to the mall. Apparently the snow was extremely high and piled this morning. My brother had to shovel my dad's car out at like 4AM! By this time, though, the streets were plowed just enough for decent driving, but the piles of snow around it were huge! I have no complaints though. Even as I look into my un-shoveled backyard, I still want to just into and lay in the snow. It was nice to have a day to relax at the mall. I didn't buy much. All I got was two cardigans from Love Culture where as my brother bought a whole outfit from Zara. >_> The cupcakes are still waiting to be sold and are still just as tempting. I still haven't got any studying in! This is such a failure. OH. I also started on my first portfolio project!! My first due date for Sarah's "mask assignment" is due tomorrow, but with midterms and all it has been hard. I am very, very pleased with how the result came out so far. The nose looks amazing and accurate! :'D Photo is from the mall. Boy, do I love me some colored assortments!

Cheating the Midterms Like Death

Oh man, we just can't get enough of this snow! I absolutely love it! We got another unexpected half day, due to inclimate weather. Every time I look out the window, the view never changes. It was always snow, snow, snow. Were were only able to get one make-up exam out of the way: pre-cal for me. Even though I had to finish pre-cal after school, I am very happy with today. We didn't have our period 5/6 midterm yet, probably tomorrow, and I still have to study. When I got home, there wasn't much on the agenda besides relax, eat, and clean. I found myself cleaning the living room which is still a total mess. I have only done so much and it's still a mess. Ohh weelllll. I've also been baking tonight for tomorrow's supposed colorguard bake sale. It will suck if it snows, but it will also suck if we do have a delayed opening and we are without baked goods. It would basically be a wasted day in making money for next season and I would hate to go through that. Man, I've been baking from 7PM-11PM. I definitely had all day to study for US History tonight. I also had two other chances to study for this exam, since it was supposed to be on Friday! Geez. I'm very proud of my cupcakes :3 they all look so cute and it smells so good. I'm tempted to take one :0 Photo is of my cupcakes :D

Hi, Can I Get A Taxi to the High School?

Dealing with siblings is a workout, let me tell you! Last night, I asked my brother for a ride to school this morning. He said yes and I had it imprinted in my mind that he said yes and would be ready and on time. He called me at 7:20AM to make sure I was getting dressed. He said he would be here soon. I call him back at 7:30AM and he informed me that he was in Jersey City, stuck in traffic. At 7:40AM, he verified with me that I was better off calling a cab. So thanks, hermano. I was late to school on the first day of midterms. Besides coming to school late, the rest of the day wasn't too bad. I was stuck in Chem for a deathly 4 hours, but we made the best of it (sort of). My lab group got pretty out of hand and started burning things on the Bunsen burner. They were dipping the wood splints in whatever substances we thought would burn. Then, I got a bit nervous because they wouldn't stop! And I'm supposed to be the pyro here! Mr. Doldi got mad a couple of times, but we hid it well. He never figured out where the smoke was coming from and even blamed others. Later on, we did an experiment with a balloon and a big needle. I was picked to imitate it and successfully got the needle through the balloon without popping it! Unfortunately, I couldn't pierce through both sides of the balloon because both balloons could not fit on the needle. Plus, Mr. Doldi popped mine. >_> It was all pretty cool though. Photo is of the experiment.