Changing & Lost Memory

I can't help but feel that I'm changing for the better. Its as if I'm noticing myself, from an out of body state, experiencing the comfortable social progress. The usual situation is that I worry too much and try too hard. But considering how my junior year has been so far, I am talking to people in my class much more comfortably that the usual awkward stuff. I finally feel a bit like I'm part of the junior class..

This morning we had an assembly called Project PRIDE . Inmates from NJ state prisons came to talk about how certain choices made in their lives landed them in the same tan jumpsuits. The point proven is to make the right choices like have fun but be carful. I couldn't agree more with the idea and even though I'm not a party animal or a pot head, it still applied to my life as well. after school, I couldn't hang out with him once again. I walked him home and then walked back to the high school. It was pretty freakin cold! I had my laptop and a textbook in hand so it was a bit heavy to walk with. I have walked the distances so many times just to be with him for a walk home. There hasn't really been a time where I have said no to walking. Ugh, tonight I have accidentally wiped out my entire phone memory. odueshfjsnkjsn. While we were BBMing, I admit to falling asleep. Every time I burst back awake, I immediate go to my phone to reply you awaiting BBMs. My phone is password protected and my phone did not read as the usual request for password. Instead, I was asked to "Enter "Blackberry" to continue" I followed the directions. It didn't work. Maybe I typed it wrong. I triend it a few more times and still nothing. What the hell, man?! After so many failed attempts, it automatically began completely resetting my phone as part of a security feature. I am so stressed and upset about this because I have unpublished posts on there! I had the same exact situation when I lost my iPod a few weeks ago. Losing the equipment itself wasn't a big deal, but the one source of of that I needed, my blog posts, were gone! I donn't if I'll be able to sleep nicely tonight. Photo is of my phone :(