And Here i Am Again Feeling Like I Messed Up

Now that I think of it, I have not gone out in a while! My papa dropped me off this afternoon to go over Deejay's for a movie day. Jaelynn, Ana, Jacob, and I went over to watch Black Swan and Catfish. I was so excited to see Jacob and cuddle next to him for a few hours. We did just that through the duration of Black Swan [which was mindfuckingly good] and Catfish. Being the fearful, paranoid fiend that I am, I screamed at such minuscule parts. Mind you, neither Catfish nor Black Swan are supposed to be scary. For example, in Black Swan there is a scene where Natalie Portman is walking to the bathroom and the eyes of one of many paintings on the wall move. It wasn't even a motion that was easily spotted by the watcher, but it was more like that you had to catch. Boy, did I catch that. I bugged out so badly that I sort of hit Jacob in the eye. D: Anyway, the hang out overall was just so very successful that it definitely put me in a better mood. Unfortunately Jaelynn left after a while and Jacob had to go right after we finished the movies. We had later post plans to get some food at Applebee's after the movies, so Jacob couldn't come. :( I feel horrible for no being able to give him a proper good night or even a kiss! Oh, how I wanted to kiss him so badly tonight. It is very hard to sit next to your significant other and not share one simple kiss throughout the whole night. Sometimes I get really conscious about everyone around us, so I don't always like kissing in public. I finally had a chance after the movie and I regret waiting. I didn't hear him tell me to hurry, so I was still upstairs. I was going to say goodbye as I wanted to when I gathered all my stuff and went down. [I though we were all walking out together] By the time I got down, he already left. I felt very guilty and I am at fault for that one. Ana, Deejay and I then made our way to the crowded Applebee's where we actually got seated in a matter of seconds! To kill that joy, actually got up again and left because we decided to wait until 10PM for 1/2 off appetizers. The night was pretty laid back though. By a little after 10PM, we got seated and long behold we were chatting away about some interesting topics. It was nice to get out again today because I haven't hung out with friends outside of school in a while. Photo is of our gangster wheels via rental. :D