HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, Fucking Kill Me.

I made gravy tonight. Two packets, actually. I felt like such a mom pro, making gravy all by myself. It is besides the point to know that I all you need to do is ad water and stir the mix in a sauce pan over the stove. An accomplishment is an accomplishment, right? I guess you could say another accomplishment in my day, or ours, is to have totally ruined a good one. Today was absolutely great. We hung out after school, got all lovey dovey like a nice couple. We walked back to the high school where I had to pick up some orders. Now, I guess the important thing you should know about me in this relationship is that I am notorious for being the one who fucked up. I have chosen friends over him. I have constantly tried to argue my case to be right. Despite who is right or wrong, I am almost always the one who brings the argument up. Exhibit A: Tonight, I threw our relationship back to square 1, where no one was happy. It was a situation of supposedly choosing friends over him. I say supposedly because I actually thought into it and tried to avoid such a disaster. Without going into much detail, I will conclude that I am the trouble maker, when I try not to be. This has been the first problem we have had since we hit the year mark. Ever since then, we ave been smooth sailing. My god, we were even doing that 5-minute "get over the argument" thing that I wished we could! I really believe that we are past that naive stage in our relationship, but I have disappointed us tonight. Then, in the midst of such a low feeling, jealousy finds me again. Fucking bullshit. Photo is of our drawing.