I Have Broken Up With Myself

Last night I found myself surrendering to... myself. Yesterday, I found out that the project I was putting off for Friday was actually due today. I spent much of last night trying to work on my project, but the majority of my night was spent procrastinating. I've been known to wait until the last minute, but this was something new; it was beyond the self-torture I'm used to. Thus far, Junior year has been hell. I have never worked hard and done anything in advance. Every project, every paper, and every assignment has been left to last minute. I constantly tested my limits and took them for granted. I'm sick of my lazy behaviors. What my parents always told me is finally seeing truth. "You're killing yourself," they said. I didn't want to wake up this morning because I knew that hell was rising. I really need to change my ways. I can't wait for college where I will be taking classes that I will actually like. My motivation is all gone. I need extra help to get through these days. Photo is of started painting.