Progressive & Desiring

I am slowly becoming less and less phased by things that would usually have me down in the dumps. I really want to hang out with him tomorrow, but in the reality where he doesn't want to, I have just been accepting. I will look at this in a better light and reassure myself that I can see him on Monday.

Today, surprisingly, have been a very productive day. I have been able to work on my Wind Ensemble pieces for flute, read through some English papers, work on the Pre-Cal worksheet, and do my AP Chem homework -early. I have worked so well to a point of stress and a slight headache. Although many would see that as a negative aspect, I look at it in the sense that I will have less to worry about on Sunday night. In all my years of procrastination and attempts to work well, I have barely lived in the moment where I realize there is nothing to be done and I am really free to relax. I have done an excessive amount of eating today which involved Nutella and bread. Yay, periods. Tonight I have found myself deeply exploring the FIT website again. This would be about the 50th time repeating. I am so determined to go there, but I need to keep reminding myself about possibly not getting admitted. Photo is of the best damned stack of pancakes I have ever made this morning!