Unfathomable

Wow, I've honestly never felt so defeated at my own hands. I checked my grades last night and discovered that I'm standing at a 75 with my history grade because of my failure of a project. The thing is, I finished and literally sent it to him at the end of the class, but the e-mail didn't go through. Also, with the 75, it didn't bother me as much as it usually would. That night, I gave up on myself. I gave up on school. I finished a painting I started last night

Today, all of my stresses built up even more. The lamp broke, the laptop broke fell on me, I had bad grades, all that jazz. I just couldn't take it today. It was nice to get extra hours of sleep, but even that backfired on me. I woke up with a slight headache, probably because the heater was on too high and I slept in. I really want to get my life back together. Lets go. Photo is of my finished painting.