Halloween At Ends

Happy Halloween! And moreso, Happy end of the longest short season ever!! There was a sandwich of feelings tonight that had me up and down. The morning of a competition day always begins up there. Excitement is always present when it comes to getting ready for what we know to be a big day. I pulled up to the high school with my coffee in hand and inside we began on make-up. The guard couldn't help but bring up last night every now and then, reminiscing on the fun. Last night, I finally bonded with the guard. Loading the buses was still part of the incline of happiness. We were really on our way to All-States and I was so prepared. We were going to dominate and be amazing! I brought my camera today, first time in a long while, to document today. Ana bought a bunch of food for the bus ride which we all munched on. I tried to sleep on the way there, but failure to do so began the decline of emotions. I was now feeling tired and incomplete. I think my hair was done so tightly that I couldn't even relax my tired eyes. The entire way there, even with iPod in hand, my eyes were basically close and I was looking into the back of my eyelids. When we got there, I had no other option but to keep going. Thought I did not have sleep, warm-up was good and I was excited again. I felt that I was performing well and spinning just as nicely. When we started marching to the gate, up that familiar, steep hill that I know too well, I got a bit nervous. This was the typical kind of nervousness mixed with excitement. The guard shared Starbursts and we were off. I ended up swallowing my candy which may have been what affected me later on.. I marched down the 50. We set up our flags. I got ready. I wished everyone good luck. The band was ready. Here we go.

So I had a bad show. It bothers me for the fact that.. I felt so ready and so prepared. But when I began to spin, something felt off and it only got worse and worse. I was disappointed in myself. I was disappointed and confused. How could I let this happen at All-States?!. I wasn't going to let these feeling kill me for the rest of the day, but for now, the feeling was sinking in. In between taking photos, I had my arms crossed and my eyes found their way to the groun

d. I tried to talk to my guard and as it turns out, the majority of us had a bad show. I to

ld them that you are going to have your good shows and your bad ones. I was upset, but after that, getting back to the buses and eat had me happy again. Chilling with everyone after a show is what I

enjoy. We ate our food on the side and just relaxed. I took more pics, too. We marched back to the stands to watch other bands as well as buy merch or food. I went around with Deejay, but later came back for awards. Quickly said, the placement we made at awards was nothing different from what I had expected. It still hurt a little, though, get the tiny participation trophy for 9th place. Everyone was disappointed when we got back, yada-yada. I would rather not continue to repeat something I already know. The bus ride back was muchooo fun!! As planned on Friday, we had a rave :D Fabi and Ana brought out the glow-sticks and once the sun went down, we star

ted waving them around. The incorporation of Halloween masks made it even funnier.. along with the peeing in a Vitamin water bottle done by Deejay ahaha. It was pretty sad to understand that getting off the bus tonight would be the last time for this season, and for the seniors we sat with. Th

e good feelings of today finally continued with the Halloween Party. Ana and I finally got to dress up as Mario and Luigi and tonight in general was just great. We took pictures and Fabi took a pic as Snookie with Raymond's wig. Tonight was so great and I wouldn't change a thing. Thank god the season is over, but so long to these fun nights. .. until next year lol. Photos are from throughout today.