Weighed Down By The Delayed Sadness

I was a little confused this morning as to why our dilemma wasn't bothering me as much as it typically would. Worry only crossed my mind so many times, as I got ready for church. I didn't get it. Then, I pieced together the facts that we have a problem that I wasn't fully informed on. When I was informed yesterday of it, you left the conversation right after. When you returned, we barely discussed it before you grew tired and headed in for the night. Basically, I never had enough time for it to register in my mind; it finally did while we were at church though. Throughout the mass, I was eager and nervous to BBm you when I got home. I wanted to know how you morning went. Apparently, you were to meet privately with the Elders of your congregations to determine whether or not privileges should be removed. I remember kneeling, with my hand folded neatly as I allowed the bread to dissolve in my mouth. My cheek suddenly pressed into my intertwined fingers, weighed down by the delayed sadness. Mass was almost over and I wasn't to sure I wanted to go home and talk to you anymore. I was afraid to come hope to a BBM reading that we have to break up. We got home, had lunch, and I finally BBMed you. You were happy and things apparently went smoothly? I wanted to ask more about it, but you said you didn't want to talk about it. I still am very eager to know, but for argument's sake, I held back.

The greatest highlight of my day has to be my driving, for the first time ever, from Montclair back to Belleville. After my father and I dropped off my sister at work, I asked him if I could drive home. I was only about 66% serious, expecting him to say no. My god, he said yes! I was a little nervous, but the experience itself was not as bad as I expected. My dad commented on how tense I was and how I was tapping the gas/brake pedals too hard. He was giving me advice as I drove and hey, I made it home! I can't help but feel excited for the next opportunity to drive again! :) Photo is of two out of four packets I must read for tomorrow. Boo -_-