You're Such A Girl

Via late notice, I found out that today is the last day of Jon's stay. I was a little heartbroken because we haven't even been able to hang out much during his stay. With a failed trip to the mall and a few let down suggestions, I ended up going to the Nutley Diner with him around 4PM. With only a hour to kill. I am very grateful to have that quick 45 minutes with him just to really say goodbye. I finally used my polaroid camera for the first time and he keeps the first picture. I tried to take one for my keeping, but I used a light picture setting and out faces and too bright to make out out features.

How is it that only about a half hour into the new year, I found myself lonely and depressed? I found myself literally crying as I laid in bed. I thought about how everyone was spending their New Year's with someone he cared about or just having genuine fun. Now, I'm not sure if it was the Sangria extracting my emotions, but they were definitely all over the place. I felt alone for the fact that my siblings were going out tonight. Then, when the ball finally dropped, I called each of my friends, who were with other friends or on their way to see someone, to welcome the new year. Jon was in NYC, Jae was going to see Teejay, Ana had people over. Me? My parents would never let me go to the city and spend the New Years away from home. Depressed in bed, the guy who has shown me new and greater forms of happiness this past year did not fail to cheer me up. He called up and we had a real, strong, directed conversation. He laughed at me for crying and being such a girl. Boy, he sure does mean the world to me. After our phone call had to end bitterly short, I faced something else. I got a text from Kim asking for dire help. I was more than happy to talk to her because I have not talked to her at all lately! I helped her with boy problems and it was really great to re-bond with one of my best friends. This New Years Eve has turned out a lot brighter that it had begun. I have everything to thank him for. Photo is of my sister after I helped get her read tonight. Also, my burnt hands from the straightener -_-.