If I think back on today, I would be able to only assume it was a dream. This dream started off with rehearsal. Today, I honestly felt like I was improving as a captain. My voice projects with more assurance and confidence now. Not only that, but I know what I'm saying. :D Before, I would project my voice too much and get lost in thought, stuttering and slurring my words as if I was just another member. Now, here I am talking on AIM to one of the new guard members. She confessed that she actually looks up to me in color guard and here I am giving her advice in becoming better. If she makes competitive, then she will officially crown me as her Yoda. As cheesy at it sounds, it means a lot to me. I used to be the noobie, picking up a flag for the first time ever. Yeah, I looked up to the current captains at the time, but I never expected to be the captain.The rest of my day was not a fairytale, but it was like something that may lead up to one- the one I want the most..
Rewind. After band, he came by with a guitar because he needed to make a cover with a friend. We were out in the front with DJ, who was ditched by a few people who went with others he doesn't like. We ended up spending the day together, the three of us at Jacob's house and with an interesting trip to Coldstone's. Unfortunately, mother nature said hello today because she had the best timing in the world. At his house, we sat on the deck, with our feet soaking in the pool. With DJ around, it's pretty obvious we can't do anything, but at the same time I wouldn't be there at all if he wasn't. I set my mind to be grateful for the lesser feelings. After a while, his father came home. Then, his brother. Next, his other brother. Last but not least, was mama. We ended up all getting along and we even had tacos for dinner. With the whole family there, I felt like I was getting along with my future second family and this was a good start. I single-handedly embarrassed myself about twice, singing a silly song from my Spanish classes from Elementary School for each parent. Before leaving for Coldstone's, DJ and I said our good-byes to the parents. Again, I look back and think, "This will really benefit us in the future." I'm establishing a good relationship with his family. Maybe we'll be able to do more things. Maybe neither of us will have to make suck life-changing decisions. Maybe God has something waiting for us- something that we'll finally let us be together, without the hurt of others, without the biggest sacrifices.
Maybe the benefit of today could not come without our initial sacrifice. Unfortunately, we didn't get to spend much time together, keeping a slight distance from each other the entire time. I would choose to hold your hand over keeping distance any day. I'm not sure why not all of our efforts were here today, but I mainly got to hold your hand when we went to Coldstone's. Even then, did I feel awkward because of all the people we were with. I know them all, but I don't know what came over me. Maybe it was mother nature's fault. Anyways, whatever is done is done. We can't say today sucked, because it definitely didn't, but it wasn't our fairytale, either. Ah, hopefully tomorrow brings that. Photo is of my view from lying on his hammock :)
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